A Sudden Illness by Laura Hillenbrand

With the publication of the excellent article in the New York Times Magazine last week, The Unbreakable Laura Hillenbrand, I just noticed that trending stats on my blog show many searches for her harrowing and moving account of the onset of her ME (CFS in the article), A Sudden Illness. I also noticed that the links I posted a few years ago for that article, which was originally in The New Yorker, were no longer working (and you have to pay to access the archives). So, here is a .pdf file of her article: A_Sudden_Illness.

I really want to feed the public’s curiosity about her journey and this illness while the NY Times article is still featured on their site (currently in the Health section and #4 on the Most Emailed list). Please feel free to share this post so we can educate while people are curious around the marketing of the film, Unbroken.

After reading the NY Times article, a few things stuck with me: she separated from her husband, which is heartbreaking, yet, sadly, understandable; she can walk down a street, go up and down stairs, do yoga; she has gotten much better and had horrific relapses; she still suffers constant vertigo and hasn’t gone insane; she is taking “new drugs” (what new drugs??)… and some of the workarounds we have to do to accommodate this illness can lead to a richer experience.

Another thing that stayed with me: her first editor said, after 25 years, “the first draft of ‘Seabiscuit’ is still the best he has ever received.” Damn, imagine being that writer. Would be a dream come true for me to publish a book, let alone have it touch millions.

There have been other interviews with her, but I’ve never seen one as thorough as this one by Wil Hylton. Hillenbrand said on Facebook, “I am so moved and grateful. Thank you, Wil, and to everyone who was interviewed for the piece. I can’t express how stirred I am by this.”

The New Yorker listed A Sudden Illness as one of the top ten most requested articles from 1999 to 2009, which speaks to the legions of sufferers looking for any information and first-hand accounts of onset. I know I was and that article changed the way I viewed my illness — it was at once comforting and totally terrifying, it both inspired me and left me hopeless. Mostly, it was validating.


I listened to Seabiscuit while driving my brother’s Isuzu Trooper from Knoxville, Tennessee to Durham, North Carolina to New York City. It was the first book I’d ever listened to on tape. I rented it from a Cracker Barrel (a restaurant chain, dotted along highways, that rents books from one location and allows you to return them to another) and it will always be inexorably linked to that road trip during an exhilarating summer. I’d had my first scary health incident a few weeks earlier — a two month headache that called for a lumbar puncture, which landed me in the emergency room the next morning with the worst pain I’ve ever experienced in my life. I wasn’t told to stay lying down after the procedure and my cerebral spinal fluid was seeping through the puncture wound that never healed. But, when I drove to New York soon after, I was a woman unleashed and vibrant, soaring with that new gratitude you can only get from a scary hospital visit. I had no schedule, no job, some money saved and Seabiscuit was my travel companion. We parted ways just as I was driving into Manhattan on a hot August night, wearing a skimpy sun dress and chunky sandals. All the windows were down and I was enveloped in those pungent NY smells and frenetic lights and noise: They fed me like life force. I had never heard of ME and I had no idea that one day, like the author of the book I just listened to, I would be housebound and forced to listen to books rather than read them… That evening, driving on the open road and then jumping out of the jeep to hug my best friend from college in the middle of the shimmering heat of Manhattan, might have been the most alive I’ve ever felt.

And then there’s Unbroken. If you’re one of the few I haven’t told to read it, I’m telling you now: Read it. Don’t go see the movie instead. Interestingly, while my husband was shopping in a Torrance, California Whole Foods the day before I went to see Dr. Chia and the first time leaving Seattle in two years, there was a public memorial service being held to celebrate Louis Zamperini’s life a few blocks away. Funny how things come back around like that.


By the time he returned to check on me, I was sweating profusely and chills were running over me in waves. He took my hand and was horrified: it was gray and cold, and the veins had vanished. He spread blankets over me and tried to help me drink a glass of milk. I couldn’t sit up, so he cupped my head in his hand and tipped the milk into my mouth sideways. It ran down my cheek and pooled on the pillow. My teeth chattered so much that I couldn’t speak. Borden called an emergency room. The nurse thought that I was in shock and urged him to rush me in. But we were far from the hospital, and doctors had never been able to help. I was sure that being moved would kill me.

— From A Sudden Illness
I have been there so many times.


6 thoughts on “A Sudden Illness by Laura Hillenbrand

  1. bertieandme says:

    Have just read the article you linked to, even though it’s made me dizzy reading such a long piece. Wow, it’s incredible. I have thought and felt every word she wrote during my years with ME. I am so in awe of the fact she wrote *anything*, let alone best selling books, words fail me. Thanks so much for sharing x

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  2. ‘The workarounds we do to accomodate this illness can lead to a richer experience’ – may take a while to be able to appreciate and see the richness but it can happen. Great post. Merry Christmas xx

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  3. Elizabeth, I applaud you for this post, and for caring so much as to provide the pdf of the New Yorker magazine article. My heart goes out to you and to all the ME sufferers (including, in particular, my daughter) whose lives have been turned upside down and inside out due to this disgusting illness. I wish for you and everyone else, a better year soon to start. Best holiday greetings. xo Carol

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  4. Connie Lawrence Goggins says:

    Reading how Laura copes with her illness is always inspiring to me and provides ideas for daily life. For instance, when she wanted to see how the targeting in the plane flown by the hero in “Unbroken”, the WWII expert she was talking with on the telephone told her she really needed to go to this museum to see an actual targeting system on display. She simply said “I can’t”. She explained that illness prevented her from leaving her home. So HE BROUGHT AN ACTUAL ANTIQUE TARGETING SYSTEM FROM ONE OF THESE PLANES TO HER HOME AND ASSEMBLED IT IN HER LIVING ROOM !!! There are so many things I think I could do and enjoy if I would be more willing to say “I can’t” but here’s how you could help me experience something, or be involved or maybe, possibly even do some work from home. It is so HARD to say “I can’t GO but I could be involved, with help” when I don’t LOOK sick. But Hillenbrand inspires me to try this approach more than I have in the past.

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  5. […] moaning out loud from the queasy out-of-bodiness, which is unlike me, and I was reminded again of Laura Hillenbrand and how unrelenting vertigo could possibly be the worst imaginable […]


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