An apology that I have been so absent in 2015 and not answering comments properly. Please know that I have read them all and appreciate every one, more than you’ll ever know. I’ve been having these episodes, which take days to recover from and I’ve also felt really busy, which always perplexes me when I used to work 50+ hours a week, but I guess it’s because I have so few productive hours now.
As usual, I schedule far too many appointments and I feel like I need to keep them all or I somehow put pressure on myself to follow every suggested lead or keep up with the things that should help me, like therapy — stay relevant to my doctors or something. From now until the end of April, I have 2 – 3 appointments scheduled every single week. It’s ludicrous, I know. I KNOW! But I have a hard time deciding what I should forego. Strain-counterstrain therapy and mental therapy every few weeks, a new sleep study and its follow-up, ACTH stimulation test and its follow up, pituitary tests, thyroid blood draw, ND follow-up, new gastrointestinal specialist, new rheumotologist/possible mast cell specialist, new neuroopthomologist, new headache specialist (a female Buddhist monk neurologist, how cool is that?), dermatologist (which I will cancel)… plus, I really want to get a massage sometime this year, I really want to get outside with the dogs when I feel stronger, I have to do taxes (shudder — this takes days), I have to challenge my health insurance rejections, I have to submit all my compounded Rxs to insurance and order copies of medical notes from the last 6 months (sooo much paperwork), I am still plugging away at my ME/MCAS emergency protocol packet, I want to hang some of the cemetery walk photos I took last year, I need to make some roasties and soups and freeze them, I need to shower, wash my CPAP, do my laundry, wash my bedclothes, order compression stockings, spices and a few supplements, get a new medic-alert bracelet, get a new driver’s license (one can dream), get a new Irish passport (one can dream bigger), PLUS I’m trying to find time to practice my brain retraining (Gupta Programme) on top of meditations, cooking, eating, requisite TV watching etc. etc…. It’s ridiculous. [Cue Bonnie Johnson commenting below, YOU’RE EXHAUSTING ME, LIZ!! ;)]
So, point being, thank you for reading, commenting, not getting responses always, understanding and supporting. Love each and every one of you. ❤ ❤ ❤