A few things I want to note:

First off, the photos from my garden are my effort to “notice the good things”, as my therapist encourages me to do (since I am all-consumed with the badness of ME). So, my blog might be:

[garden-of-good-things intermission]

My husband is a landscaper and has crafted an oasis here in the city. One silver lining from this illness: I have literally stopped to smell the roses (or lilies). In the past, I never took much notice of what he planted where or when. I was too busy working. Who has time to look at plants when there are P&Ls to pour through? Now, every time I take a gander through our garden, something new is happening. Since I am housebound, each new bloom or bud is breaking news. The lives of bugs and birds are my realty shows.

Also, yesterday I realised that there are ads on some of my posts (gasp!). This is WordPress’s way of paying their bills and is not my choice. I can have a “no-ad blog“, but it costs $30/year and I really don’t want to spend the money. However, please let me know if it is really bothersome to your reader experience and I will reconsider that decision. 🙂

Rotten on the Inside.

I spoke too soon about Fuji apples. I just cut into this one and it was already brown on the inside…. Oh, and I never mentioned the broccoli mites! I doubt very many people would even have noticed them – they looked like the tips of the broccoli itself and were clumped in between the branches. I don’t mind insects in my produce – I once almost ate a huge grasshopper in my organic salad and you have to wash slugs and critters off our garden veg, of course – but there was something disquieting about how camouflaged these little buggers were. And it is unnerving when fruit looks so delicious on the outside, but is rotten when you slice into it. Oh god, I just described this and so many other diseases… Rot that can’t be seen on the outside. Invisible illness.